Correction to my original blog

I should have stated that Cancer will be the object of my angst in this blog, not my cancer.

Are You Blank Kidding Me Round 1

What in the world does the title mean? First, it is the edited thought I had when I heard the words that my wife's cancer was back. Second, you can replace blank with whatever term you choose to express your feelings towards anything or anyone. My cancer will be the object of my angst in this blog.

A little history of what brings me to start this blog. Three years ago my wife was diagnosed with Stage 2 Hodgkin's Lymphoma. At the time we had a 2 year old son and a not quite 3 month old daughter. Needless to say those are not words you expect to hear at that point in your life. Fortunately, she was able to complete 6 rounds of chemo and was said to have successfully completed treatment. From the outside it looks like a pretty crappy situation that ended up with a positive outcome from treatment. 

Fast forward to 2011 after cleans scans for the past couple of years she gets the results from a routine scan that there is an "area of concern" in her chest. She undergoes a PET scan which shows positive activity of cancer and now has a biopsy to confirm these findings. Pathology has now come back with the results that in fact her Hodgkin's lymphoma is back. 

Obviously, that is a very quick synopsis of what has been an incredibly stressful, yet rewarding three years. After doing much soul searching, questioning everything and general frustration in not being able to find the resources I wanted as a husband of a cancer patient and survivor I decided that I would share my side of things in the hopes that it may help another husband, wife, partner, parent or child of a cancer patient and hopefully survivor. A second goal is that maybe I would find peace in sharing our story. 

My intent is to be completely and brutally honest about what I feel or have felt. I do not claim to have all the answers. I can say with some certainty that I can share how not to handle certain situations. All I can say to anyone reading this is that I have been there and everything you are feeling, thinking, wishing or hoping is probably completely normal, but not many have the fortitude to admit the true thoughts.

Todd